31 July 2008
30 July 2008
Nothing new to report... been very busy with the business and trying to work full time as well. I like to say I have three full time jobs.... the job I get paid for, the 'business' and being a mom. It's certainly taking it toll on all of us at our house. I know I'm feeling guilty about not spending enough time with Colton and just being at home. Hopefully one job will come to an end within the next few months. It's my light at the end of the tunnel and I hope all of this work will pay off in the end.
Posted by Shawna and Chuck at 12:11 PM
22 July 2008
Posted by Shawna and Chuck at 7:10 AM
18 July 2008
Our house is sold... we're just waiting for the pre-approval letter and an official purchase agreement. While this is exciting news, it's bittersweet. We have so many wonderful memories at that house... it's first house we bought together, bringing Colton home, playing with the dogs, 4-wheeling and having two of our precious dogs go on to their next life all in the short 3 1/2 years we've lived here. We like to think Champ played a part in getting it sold. We haven't had anyone interested in it for months and Sunday the couple looked at it and last night they came back and gave us on offer. I think sort of Champ's way of telling us he's moved on and so can we... he wanted to be at the farm for as long as he could and made us stay until it was time.
So thank you, Champ.... just another sign we know you're watching over us. You've been gone a week exactly this morning and it's still hard to believe. I cry for you everyone morning... You made us better people. You taught me how to love and be loved in a special way I never knew. Part of me feels no matter what I write, I could never put into words or convey to others what an amazing dog you were... I cannot do you justice in words, Champ and I wish I could. Only Chuck and I know in our hearts just how special you were and you don't realize the impact you had on our lives. You and your 'dad' had a special bond... as he says, he could look in you eyes and know what you were thinking and you knew what he was thinking when you looked into his. You were one of a kind and we miss you terribly, Champers. This place on the farm, will always be your home....
Thank you to whoever for listening to my thoughts and feelings... part of me feels like they're just too private to share and it makes me feel terribly vulnerable and the other part says it's ok to let it all out there. So... thank you.
Posted by Shawna and Chuck at 7:56 AM
17 July 2008
Posted by Shawna and Chuck at 7:24 AM
15 July 2008
Don't cry because it's over.
He's had been on my mind constantly for the last 2 months since we found out he was sick. I found myself these last 2 weeks or so, terribly worried he wasn't downstairs, that somehow he was still outside and alone. I would check on him 4-5 times in the evening before I went to bed, making sure he was still down there and every time I would go down there I would pet him and tell him how much I loved him. I did it the night before he died. I went down there right before I went to bed making sure he was ok. We had a terrible wind storm that night and a large tree beside the garage fell down. As I put Champ on the lead that morning, I saw the tree. I think the falling of the tree was a sign from God... something large in our life is falling and would make us fall to our knees. Chuck made a comment that the yard doesn't look the same... just as with the tree, life without Champ is not the same.
Chuck wonders if we didn't do this soon enough, that we let him suffer for too long... I don't want any regrets. We tried and we loved and we will always remember. He will be the dog we compare every other one to. I think people who aren't dog lovers, think we're crazy for being this upset... we really truly love everyone of our dogs like they are a part of the family.
I came home last night and pulled up in the drive way and I usually count... 1, 2,3,4... only there wasn't 4 to count in the kennel, and as I'm doing this I'm opening up a card from the vet. I was expecting just a 'sorry for you loss card', but inside the card they had a piece of paper with a stamped print of Champ's paw... and I just lost it...
We'll have an autopsy done just find out for sure what was wrong with him. The vet thought he might have had liver cancer, too because of the ulcers in his mouth and the fact the fluid in his lungs never subsided even on the pills he was on. We'll have his ashes spread out west in the fall where Chuck goes hunting... their favorite place together and we'll bring Raven with, too who left us 2 years ago July 7. It's a place she never had a chance to go to while alive, but would have loved also.
Chuck is planning on getting a tattoo of Champ on his chest on the right side... the side he was always on. Chuck decided it'll be a picture we have of him, with the sun setting behind and possibly a pheasant in the background as well. It'll say 'Gone But Never Forgotten' on the top and 'Champion' written along the bottom. I thought he should get a tattoo over his heart of the paw print the vet gave us... he just might.
While this post was meant to be short, it just couldn't be. There's just too much to say and so much more I could write... So, this is for you Champ.... while we want you back in the worst way, I know you'll always be with us... we'll take care of your girl, and she'll make you proud this fall. We will always remember and we know how incredibly lucky we were to have you in our lives and call you our dog. WE LOVE YOU, CHAMP. From a card we received from a friend... God needs good hunting dogs in heaven, too. So... in Chuck's words, Go hunt 'em up, Champ... find the birds.....
My spirit is free I am everywhere
In the air that you breathe
In the sounds that you here
Don't cry for me
My spirit is near
I'll watch for you
From the other side
I'll be the one running
New friends by my side
Smile at my memory
Remember in your heart
This isn't the end
It's a brand new start
Posted by Shawna and Chuck at 8:34 AM
11 July 2008
As I write this my heart hurts as Chuck is at the vet with our handsome boy Champ, again. God granted the wish I was looking for when it was 'time'. While we know this is the best thing, it hurts so very much, as life without our beautiful dog will never be the same. He's Chuck's best friend, the most wonderful dog I will ever know with his constant wagging tail and gentle brown eyes and Morgan's protector from the day she came home, she was 'his girl'. His body just couldn't keep up with the energy he wanted to have and he will be able to hear, see and run again like he used to... chasing the pheasants he so dearly loved to hunt. So we say, WE LOVE YOU, Champ. You're forever in our hearts and we were so lucky to have you in our lives. Everytime we get to answer the phone at work, your namesake, you will be in our thoughts, CHAMPION. Say 'hi' to Raven for us. LOVE YOU our handsome boy.... our Champers.... our Buster Brown...
Posted by Shawna and Chuck at 7:49 AM
07 July 2008
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Posted by Shawna and Chuck at 9:02 AM